"It seems like at some point you'd run out of awful."

That quote from Kathryn Stockett's THE HELP can be taken many ways.  It does seem like at some point you'd run out of awful. Just what is awful?  Awful to you may be waking up without coffee.  Awful to somebody else may be their rival football team winning the SUPER BOWL.  So what is awful and what happens if your awful never runs out? What does a person do when it seems like they just won't,  cant run out of awful? Some people just give in and through in the towel. They just cant handle life and so they just check out. How said is that? You never know when your awful is going run out. The author of the GIRL WITH THE DRAGON TATTOO trilogy is the biggest selling author in Swedish history. After receiving rejection letter after rejection letter he decided he couldn't wait to run out of awful. He injected air into his heart causing himself to have a massive coronary.  Three days later in the mail a contract and signing bonus arrived  for the Girl with the Dragon Tattoo trilogy.  He had just run out of awful, but he didn't have the heart to stick around long enough to know it.

It breaks my heart every time I hear of anyone especially a teenager committing suicide. So  what if you aren't captain of the football team or head cheerleader. That may sound easy for me to say, but I went to high school too. It's rough on everyone, even the football players and cheerleaders.  Steve Jobs was not popular in high school.  High school is awful and it seems endless. Had Steve Jobs not realized that awful does eventually run out Apple and Ipads , I pods and all the rest wouldn't exist. Where would we be without them?  Believe me when I tell you  no matter how bad your awful is you can get through it. You gotta go through to get over.

Everyone goes through their own version of awful, sometime that awful is just plain hell. There have been many days I just thought my awful would never end. Had I thrown in the towel I wouldn't be an author with my first book A STROKE of LIFE on Amazon.com.  Waiting for your awful to end you have to have faith,  strength,  and support. Then you have to have the steel inside you to stand up to your awful. You have to look your awful in the eye and show it who is boss and tell it to go to hell. Or you can give your awful the power and let it cripple you. Good or bad I always stand by my decisions and no matter how bad my awful is I have been raised with the moxy to tell my awful it will not move in and become a permanent resident.  You have to go through some awful to become a better you. I make it clear when awful shows up at my door it will be a very short visit. Awful and pain can come around to teach me a lesson or 2, but then it has to get the hell on about it's business.

Awful ends. Good times end too. Life is a constant battlefield of awful and good. When we come to the end of our days lets just hope we have done all we can to make sure our good outweighs the awful, and that we've fought the awful hard enough so it never has a chance to take root.  Kathryn Stockett was wrong. It doesn't seem like at some point you should run out awful, you will run out of awful if you are willing to fight. Lace up your Nikes and out run that awful as quickly as you can.

I changed the locks and awful doesn't live here anymore. Peace, love and style.